| duh |
[Tuesday
December 5th, 2006
8:50pm] |
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My friend and I were debating about a certain scenario. Sabi ko, the girl likes the guy. Sabi nya wala lang yun. Lights, Camera, Action!
Scenario:
Girl and her boyfriend are having an intimate dinner when *toot toot* this girl (let's call her vea) sends a text message saying "Gimik mo? :)"
Guy answers that he is having dinner with his girlfriend.
Vea replies with a message inviting guy to watch dvds at her condo. Take note silang dalawa lang and she totally did not acknowledge that fact that the guy was with his girl. Wala man lang, "oh really" or "ahh ok"
Suddenly in between dinner and vea's interruptions, guy's cellphone starts ringing. Surprises of surprises, it's vea! So she starts making small talk about the dvds she bought and that they should hang out real soon at her place.
After the phone call, guy text's vea "Can I bring my girlfriend to watch dvds?" Vea replies "Oh...nevermind..sorry for bothering you"
kung ako yun, I would be like, sure! bring your girl over. The more the merrier"
Vea starts ignoring guy for 2 days then suddenly sends her apologies at the same time inviting guy out to dinner and her event - "my treat"
So guy asks vea for the 2nd time, "Can I bring the gf?"
Vea does not reply at all.
Unbelievable.
So does she have the hots for him or not? Di nanga dapat ginagawang debate to eh, it's a no brainer. Haha but cge na, for "fun's" sake, what do you think? ;p
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| Bubble girl |
[Saturday
December 2nd, 2006
8:10pm] |
Someone once told me to get out of my "effin' bubble" I was pretty appalled to begin with thinking, excuuse me, I do not live in a bubble.
Mali pala ako. Tama nga sya, I am in a bubble.
My bubble is named idealism. Everything in it revolves around people being naturally good. That I can change anyone if I try hard enough. I like to "save" people. Especially those whom I care for deeply. Even though it's not my job, even if I have other things to deal with, even if it's painfully difficult and even when people don't want to be changed. I do it because I believe so much in people. Feeling kasi ako, I think I'm the messiah.
I saved a certain significant other from the past from a life of not connecting with his mom, his cousins, his tita, and so on. I think I also cured his road rage,- some of his friends can attest to that teehee, his vices (only when im around), his confidence, his faith .... ayan na! nagreminisce tuloy ;p haha
Just last week somebody told me that I was the only one who could tolerate the 2 most obnoxious people in the workplace. Di naman ako deadma, di naman din ganun kahaba pasensya ko although some say otherwise, but sabi ko nga when I want to "save" someone, nagiging mahaba ang pasensya ko, matigas ang ulo ko, at matatag ang kalooban ko.
Outside my bubble, there is no such thing as security, no such thing as unconditional love, no such thing as certainty.
People go bankrupt, families lose their homes, husbands have affairs, children get turned away by hospitals ...
Life outside the bubble is more serious, more complicated, more dangerous. But, the highs are higher and neutrals just cease to exist. We can live both world's actually - the fine line between the bubble and the cruel world. You just have to decide which world rules you.
Today onwards, the messiah is on a mission. To save her bestfriend - someone outside the bubble. Someone who she believes can take over the world, someone who is brilliant but doesn't know it, someone who create so much joy but is afraid to..Got your back honey, I'm not going anywhere :)
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| Top of the world |
[Tuesday
November 7th, 2006
8:02pm] |
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Kiss the Girl: Disney |
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I love my job, yes I do. And here is why :)
choclits, choclits galoore! so what if I got back to the office at 7pm? Nice clients gave mee choclits choclits! hahaha now everybody knows my weakness. *gasp*
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This very moment, this very second, my life has changed. Everything is slowly starting to come full circle in my life, beginning with a few brief moments encompassing a lifetime of happiness :)
I want to capture it on film, write a book about it, compose a melody for it, place this time in a bottle so that I may have a whiff of my perfect moments whenever I please.
I'm a glutton for happiness you see. I grasp every fiber of joy I can get a hold of. Much like a little girl in a candy shop trying to fit all the jellybeans she can find in the palm of her small hand, fearing that one day the candy shop will run out of stock or some bully will try to take the jellybeans away from her.
But lately, my hands have become too full that I have to let some of the jellybeans go, because I've finally figured out that the candy shop will never run out of jellybeans, that I can have as many as I want, that there will always more to share with the bully, and most importantly, that I control the jellybean that is my life. - Happiness, love, contentment, faith all in one colorful package customized and manufactured in the philippines for candice's consumption :p
Everything in my life is slowly starting to come full circle. I used to say that I hate waiting for things to be close to perfect. For everything to fall into place - RIGHT NOW. now now now!
But hey, God is good and he will provide. He has for me. Everything I asked for. From the little things to the more substantial ones. Some prayers took years to be answered, others took months. But he gave them to me not when I wanted them the most (which is almost always usually, noow! :p) but when I needed them the most. :)
Being in my "happythankul" frame of mind as of the moment, I'd like to share an excerpt I got from Oprah. Isn't she the beest? Read on.
I live in the space of thankfulness - and I have been rewarded a million times over for it. I started out giving thanks for small things, and the more thankful I became, the more my bounty increased.
That's because what you focus on expands, and when you focus on the goodness in your life, you create more of it. Opportunities, relationships, even money flowed my way when I learned to be grateful no matter what happened in my life.
"Say thank you!" Those words from my friend and mentor Maya Angelou turned my life around. One day about ten years ago, I was sitting in my bathroom with the door closed and the toilet lid down, booing and ahooing on the phone so uncontrollably that I was incoherent.
"Stop it! Stop it right now and say thank you!" Maya chided. "But - you don't understand," I sobbed.
To this day, I can't remember what it was that had me so far gone, which only proves the point Maya was trying to make. "I do understand," she told me. "I want to hear you say it now. Out loud.
'Thank you.'" Tentatively, I repeated it:
"Thank you - but what am I saying thank you for?"
"You're saying thank you," Maya said, "because your faith is so strong that you don't doubt that whatever the problem, you'll get through it. You're saying thank you because you know that even in the eye of the storm, God has put a rainbow in the clouds.
You're saying thank you because you know there's no problem created that can compare to the Creator of all things. Say thank you!"
So I did - and still do. Only now I do it every day. I kept a gratitude journal, as Sarah Ban Breathnach suggests in Simple Abundance, listing at least five things that I'm grateful for. My list includes small pleasures: the feel of Kentucky bluegrass under my feet (like damp silk); a walk in the woods with all nine of my dogs and my cocker spaniel Sophie trying to keep up; cooking fried green tomatoes with Stedman and eating them while they're hot; reading a good book and knowing another awaits.
My thank-you list also includes things too important to take for granted: an "okay" mammogram, friends who love me, 15 years at the same job (and loving it more than the first day I started), a chance to share my vision for a better life, staying centered, having financial security.
I won't kid you, having money for all the things I want is a blessing. But as I look back over my
journals, which I've kept since I was 15 years old, 99 per cent of what brought me real joy had nothing to do with money . (It had a lot to do with food, however.)
It's not easy being grateful all the time. But it's when you feel least thankful that you are most in need of what gratitude can give you:
PERSPECTIVE. Just knowing you have that daily list to complete allows you to look at your day differently, with an awareness of every sweet gesture and kind thought passed your way. When you learn to say thank you, see the world anew. And as Meister Eckhart so eloquently stated: "If the only prayer you ever say in your whole life is 'Thank you God', that would suffice."
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| THE INVITATION (by Oriah Mountain Dreamer) |
[Monday
November 6th, 2006
10:27pm] |
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The space between: Dave Matthews Band |
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It doesn't interest me what you do for a living;
I want to know what you ache for,
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me how old you are;
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love,
for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon;
I want to know if you have touched the center of your sorrow,
if you have been opened by life's betrayals,
or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain!
I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine and your own,
without moving to hide it, or fade it, or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with JOY, mine or your own;
if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful,
to be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true;
I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself;
if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul;
I want to know if you can be faithful and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty even when it is not pretty everyday, and if you can source your life from its presence;
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours or mine,
and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "YES!"
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have;
I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair,
weary and bruised to the bone,
and do what needs to be done for the children.
It doesn't interest me who you are, or how you came to be here;
I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where, or what, or with whom you have studied;
I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away;
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself,
and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
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| Just because it's the time of the month |
[Thursday
October 26th, 2006
12:06am] |
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Fix You: Coldplay |
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... I am entitled to a bf - bitch fit.
"I'm gonna have a bf!" - ala white chicks
So I was friendstering just a while ago, going through profiles of people I don't even know. Friends of friends of friends of friends. You get the point. And I came across this one guy who had roughly 50 photos posted, 99% of which had him posing with local models, actors, and actresses.
I mean, artista ba sya? Is he even in the industry kasi occupation nya: "Bum" Close ba nya yun mga kapose nya or he just saw them one day, brought out his digicam and flashed that oh so stunning smile.
teka bakit ba ako naiinis, di ko naman kilala yun tao. In fairness friendster nya yon. He can post whatever photos he wants. Pero ayoko talaga ng posers eh. I mean, my god sobrang showbiz na yun friendster nya. Insecure ba sya? That he has to show the world he knows these people? Oh not to mention, he had a gazillion photos of him topless showing off his something pack. Dude, kung secure ka, hindi mo na kailangan ipakita sa mundo ang iyong mga "accomplishments"
OH MY GOD, my hormones are so whacked today. Suri, I'm usually a nice person the rest of the month :p
My good deed for today: I got somebody back together with his girlfriend. O diba? Pwde pala ako maging counselor.
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| Unbelievable |
[Sunday
October 22nd, 2006
9:35am] |
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BAKIT MGA IBANG LALAKI. KALA MO KAIBIGAN MO, KALA MO BESTFRIEND MO, KALA MO MAAASAHAN MO AS A FRIEND AND NOTHING MORE TAPOS BIGLA, OUT OF THE BLUE THEY THROW YOUR FRIENDSHIP OUT OF THE WINDOW. FOR WHAT REASON? DAHIL BA KASI YOU SEE THEM AS NOTHING MORE THAN A BROTHER, A BESTFRIEND, AND NOT AS A LOVE INTEREST? HINDI BA PWDE MAGING FRIENDS LANG ANG BABAE AT LALAKE? IS IT ONLY ONE OR THE OTHER? BLACK OR WHITE, LOVER OR ENEMY? WALA BANG GRAY AREA NA FRIENDS LANG? BEST FRIENDS PANGA E. SO WHAT KUNG LINOLOKO KAYO NG BUONG MUNDO. TINUTUKSO ARAW ARAW. LOKO LANG NAMAN YON DIBA? NASA SAYO NAMAN YON KUNG MAGPAPADALA KA O HINDE E. BAKIT DI KA NALANG TUMAWA AT MAG PLAY ALONG. WALA NAMAN AKONG KASALANAN DIBA? TINURING KITA BILANG ISANG TOTOONG KAIBIGAN, LAHAT NGA SINASABI KO SAYO. SAYANG NAMAN.
ITO LANG, KUNG MAY GALIT KA, SABIHIN MO SAKIN O WAG MO NALANG AKONG KAUSAPIN DAHIL NAKAKASAKIT NADIN NA YOU TURN YOUR MEAN HEAD ON ME WHEN WALA NAMAN AKONG GINAGAWA SAYO. MABAIT PANGA AKO SAYO DIBA? THANK YOU NALANG SA MAGANDANG PINAGSAMAHAN. TINURING KITANG BEST FRIEND KO NA LALAKI. NGAYONG NAMAN,UTANG NA LOOB. RESPETO LANG.
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| Lost and found |
[Wednesday
October 18th, 2006
12:02pm] |
My toothbrush wasn't in it's usual place today - right beside the toothpaste in the utility tray of my bathroom. I looked high and low and guess where I found it.
hanging on the mirror with its head in this contraption.
If you can't make it out, it's actually a green rabbit and a blue bear.
My mom is adorable.
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| Walang makakagets nito except barkada ko :p |
[Sunday
October 15th, 2006
12:52am] |
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sexy love: LSS na |
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I've caught the bug. This virus that's been floating around. Sabi ni aj, "Bird Flu" daw. haha stayed home friday night coz i felt like shit and was self medicating myself with whatever I found in the medicine cabinet at home. Fast forward saturday morning. Woke up to a phone call about a kwento of a dream someone had about me. I was off to a good start. :) I decided to confine myself at home the entire day so I would be well enough to go out at night. So what did I do for 9 hours? Slept, ate 2 cans of chef boyardi's, had beef mami delivered at home, downloaded songs, slept, organized some of my clutter, watched "Devil wears prada" tapos nasira yun dvd in the middle, watched "Don't give up on us" starring Judy Ann and Piolo on dvd. (6 shows in 1 dvd for 60 bucks!) Sulit diba? Tomorrow im watching Can this be love? Oo, jologs ako.
So right now, here I am in the bat cave with batman/robin/sino nga ba yun butler? who made a kick-ass samting that I am so damn proud of. Ang galing talaga ni batman. Napa "woOw" nanaman ako. I'm so amazed and excited. Pwedeng ibenta to. haha ayosh!
What am I doing now? Waiting for "sexy loves" ahahaha
I won't even try to fight this LSS.
Sexy love girl the things you do
Keep me sprung keep running back to you
Who I love making love to you
Babygirl you know your my (sexy love...)
Hindi ito malabo, kung matalino ka at kung kasama mo ako kanina sa Fez.
credits: Thanks to edric for the discount and our newfound waiter friend.
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| Hostage |
[Thursday
September 28th, 2006
1:30pm] |
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Storm: Vanessa-Mae |
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So here I am in the office with the rains brought about by Typhoon Milenyo (international codename: Xangsane) slamming against the windows of the building every 5 minutes. The elevators have lost all power so I am trapped here on my floor with no food or water. Buti may oxygen pa. Okaay, my dad just called and ordered me to walk down 19 flights of stairs so I can head home. Lovely.
Here I go.
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| How to tell if he loves you |
[Saturday
September 23rd, 2006
12:10am] |
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Narda: Kamikaze |
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1. He tells you
If he says those three words and says them often, count yourself lucky. A lot of men assume that their women know they're loved and don't really tell them often enough. If he realizes your need to hear him say he loves you, and he means every word of it, he's truly one of a kind. Some men may not say the actual words but imply as much when he tells you how fortunate he feels to have you in his life.
2. He shows you
Some men aren't exactly good with words and expressing their feelings. But they choose their own avenues of expression. This kind of guy does things, little or big to show you how much you mean to him. That may include ordering take-away when he thinks you need a break from cooking or taking the kids off your hands so that you can have some time to yourself. Yes, you may need to hear the words from him, but have you never heard of 'actions speak louder than words?'
3. He makes you feel special
And then there's the man who's always trying to keep the romance alive. He brings you flowers or wakes up extra early to bring you breakfast in bed. He's always going out of his way to make you feel exceptional.
4. He's happy around you
He sometimes foregoes time with his guy friends just to be with you. It may be because you've been feeling particularly low or you haven't spent enough time together lately or just because he feels good to be with you. If he can't get enough of you it's a sure sign that he's got it bad.
5. He listens to you
We're not talking 'you command, he obeys'. But when you're talking he's genuinely interested in what you're saying and gives you his undivided attention. He looks at you (not at the television blaring in the background or the newspaper in his hand), responds appropriately and gives you the idea that he's really concerned about your concerns.
6. He compliments you
He notices when you make an effort with your appearance and appreciates it. He tells you things that suit you and add to your look. It always feels great to dress up but when he looks up admiringly and tells you so, you know you matter.
7. He takes care of you
If he babies you when you're sick and nurses you back to health you can be pretty sure you've got a good thing going. If your comfort level is so high that you can look your most miserable and still be secure enough in his love you've got it made. Marriage vows don't include the "in good times and bad, in sickness and health" clause for nothing.
8. His friends and family respect you
Sometimes you can gauge how a man feels about you from the way his circle of friends and close family behave around you. If they hold you in high regard you can be sure he's been telling them just how happy he is to have you in his life.
9. He appreciates your worth
Sometimes men choose more indirect ways of expressing their true feelings. He may not actually tell you he loves you or even do anything special. But he may tell you how proud he is of your achievements. You may even find him praising you to the skies to family or acquaintances.
10. He asks for your opinion
When important decisions are at stake either concerning him or both of you jointly, he doesn't just go ahead and do what he thinks is right. He asks for your advice and not just for the sake of it. He often considers it and may even go by it. Or if he doesn't, he tells you why he didn't.
11. He takes your feelings into account
If something upsets you concerning his family or friends, he tries to see your side of it. He feels for you and even if he's seen you cry a thousand times before, he still tries to make you feel better and has that tissue box at hand.
12. He's interested in what you want too
Let's say you're both watching television and you want to watch Oprah while he'd like to catch Arsenal v/s Chelsea . You know how men are where football is concerned! If he lets you watch your choice of program, not just grudgingly but because he loves to watch you happy, you've got a winner. And if he actually sits through it just because he wants to be by your side, you know he's a goner!
A man who has his emotional act together and is wild about you WILL WANT TO MAKE YOU HAPPY. It will bring him pleasure. Just as hurting you will make him feel like shit, and he'll try to figure out how to stop doing it! He'll also want you to feel as special and valued as you make him feel. He'll be willing to take risks for your love. He'll want to share himself and his life with you. And he'll let the world know that you are his.
When a man loves you like this, you feel it.
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| Patience is a virtue |
[Wednesday
September 20th, 2006
4:24pm] |
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You and Me: Lifehouse |
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CHRONIC LATENESS
I. Hate. Waiting. I hate waiting for elevators that stop in every floor, for my turn at the counter, for freedom, for the pizza delivery guy, for my pc to start up, for my hair to grow, for my wound to heal, for a raise, for the weekend, for my ipod to finish charging, for christmas, for valentines day, for my birthday, for the summer, for the beach, for my friends to come home from every part of the world, for that email reply, for my heart to be whole, for full blast implementation, for the driver, for the water to heat, for the dance, for butterflies, for a chowchow, for lunch break, for the premiere, for someone to pick up the phone, etc, ETC.
I hate waiting for things to be close to perfect.
But because Alfred Souza is a genius, I've learned to enjoy, (ocge nanga accept) the waiting. - and wait some more.
For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.
Onga naman.
WORK
BOSSMAN: I want you to provide initial update by Friday. Please be resourceful enough in securing data needed.
ME: ALL TOP PRIVATE HOSPITALS IN THE PHILIPPINES OR METRO MANILA ONLY?
BOSSMAN: Yes all then make sub-groups. Why is your email in caps lock? What do you mean by these?
ME: OK noted. My messages are in uppercase for the purpose of distinguishing them from the several replies included with the emails
BOSSMAN: Now naman it’s in bold
I'm just experimenting. :p My boss is the most O.C person in the world, but he's still the coolest.
uuuurrg. I'm super stressed. Things are piling up on my desk. Post it's galore! Just as I am about to finish ONE thing 10 more get on queue. There should be more hours in a day. Today, a foreign client who has been calling, emailing, and texting me ENDLESSLY for 5 days straight showed up at our office at 1:30 for a meeting scheduled at 3PM. Iba talaga pag American time. Nabitin tuloy ang pag kain ko sa peanut brittle ko.
QUIZZIES
This is the perfect headline. If I had a time machine I would probably go back to 1 year ago and do the things I should have done and undo the things I should not have done. Then again, maybe altering the past would not have made me the person I am today. People close to me say that I've become "stronger", "tougher" There's probably some truth to this although I myself have not noticed any radical change. I think I am bouncing back and forth between the old me and the new me. I think I like the new me, but with a dash of the old. I know more things. I can tell apart toxic people from the good ones, well at least I think I can. I've seen more of the world this year than the past two years of my life combined. I really am going thru my own personal evolution. From ape to human to hmmm darna! haha basta, to something ive yet to find a name for.
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| THANK YOU :) |
[Tuesday
September 12th, 2006
11:52pm] |
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MADONNA: Crazy for You |
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BABY SURI
Awwww! Katie and Tom's baby is supeerr cuuute! She looks like a pixie! aaacck! sarap i-squeeze!
I'm gonna marry a man like this :)
GODSENT
Have you ever poured your heart and soul out to a complete stranger? This is a first for me. But it was just something I had. to. do. It took awhile to summon the brave little girl inside of me, but I finally managed to hit the sent button. I wasn't expecting such a heartwarming reply, but I got that and more.
An excerpt from someone.
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PRAY ON IT HONEY. YOU SEEM LIKE A VERY NICE PERSON.
KNOW WHAT YOU WANT. AND THEN BELIEVE THAT YOU DESERVE THAT. AND DON'T SETTLE FOR ANYTHING LESS.
THE ROAD TO HAPPINESS ISN'T FREE OF BLOOD AND TEARS, BUT IF YOU'RE ALREADY KILLING YOURSELF WALKING ON IT, TAKE ANOTHER ROUTE.
I WISH YOU THE BEST.
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I felt like I was just given a virtual hug. Thanks ... :)
LOVE
The I-love-yous are back.
Eto nanaman tayo. Love is sweeter the second time around. Nandito nanaman tayo sa feelings of: (and sing) I finally found someone, who knocks me off of my feet, I finally found someone who makes me feel complete. Let's see. :p
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| A different perspective |
[Monday
September 4th, 2006
9:43pm] |
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That song from Tarzan teehee |
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In between work, meetings, clients, and deliverables, there are email exchanges that take away the dreariness of the office.
LD: There’s the one you love and the one you marry. Go figure. ;-)
ME: Aren't you supposed to marry the one you love?
LD: That’s the most ideal thing that can happen to you. Sadly, not everyone ends up with the one they love. Even if you’re married, you know for a fact that s/he’s not the one you love, but life has to move on so you marry him/her. Parang a comparison between the one you love or the one who loves you.
Ikaw, if you can’t have the one that makes your heart flutter, the only guy of your dreams, would you choose to be single forever (an old maid) and not have a family of your own??? I think not, so you marry a second-best, or probably someone that doesn’t even compare, even if you know that he’ll never be what you want. This or your feelings develop and you go through the cycle of falling in love with that new guy. =)
ME: If that's the most ideal thing that can happen, then every one should strive for that IDEAL. The one I love or the one who loves me? The one I love shmpre. - The one who makes my heart flutter, not only in the beginning but up until we're old and gray tapos we'll be slow dancing pa. AY! :) bigla akong kinilig haha stop being so negative, NEVER settle my dear.
LD: Of course. I totally agree with you. I’m just giving a general picture of those unfortunate orcs who end up with their baho 2nd best. Kaw pa, you can wear a clown suit and still turn heads. Siempre clown ka eh. Hehe, you know what I mean. ;-)
Quote of the day: "Na pa tee-hee tuloy ako" hahaha cuute!
MY DREAM. MY IDEAL :)
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| Express Yourself |
[Saturday
September 2nd, 2006
1:47pm] |
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Come on girls
Do you believe in love?
'Cause I got something to say about it
And it goes something like this
Chorus:
Don't go for second best baby
Put your love to the test
You know, you know, you've got to
Make him express how he feels
And maybe then you'll know your love is real
You don't need diamond rings
Or eighteen karat gold
Fancy cars that go very fast
You know they never last, no, no
What you need is a big strong hand
To lift you to your higher ground
Make you feel like a queen on a throne
Make him love you till you can't come down
[You'll never come down]
(chorus)
Long stem roses are the way to your heart
But he needs to start with your head
Satin sheets are very romantic
What happens when you're not in bed
You deserve the best in life
So if the time isn't right then move on
Second best is never enough
You'll do much better baby on your own
(chorus)
Express yourself
[You've got to make him]
Express himself
Hey, hey, hey, hey
So if you want it right now, make him show you how
Express what he's got, oh baby ready or not
And when you're gone he might regret it
Think about the love he once had
Try to carry on, but he just won't get it
He'll be back on his knees
To express himself
[You've got to make him]
Express himself
Hey hey
What you need is a big strong hand
To lift you to your higher ground
Make you feel like a queen on a throne
Make him love you till you can't come down
[You'll never come down]
MADONNA IS THE COOLEST :)
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| Instant cure |
[Friday
September 1st, 2006
11:29pm] |
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Here I am home on a Friday night just blogging away on the muddle that is my thoughts. Off the top of your head, what do you do when you don't know what to do? What's an instant cure otherwise social anesthesia to obliterate the misery?
- SERIOUS CONTEMPLATION, ALONE - for the dispassionate
- JAGGED OBJECT/DEADLY WEAPON AFFINITY - for the ruthless
- INSTANT CURE - for ME. Swift and painless.
WEB DEFINITION: instant n 1: a very short time (as the time it takes to blink once).
THAT'S IT! give it to me! give it to me!
Instant cure number 1: CIGARETTES (Easy access and cheap too). check! "ay teka yun lighter ko.."
Instant cure number 2: BEER (Acquired taste, but easily and willingy acquired by the dismal). check! "bosing, isa pang bucket! hanggang anong oras happy hour nyo dito?"
Instant cure number 3: EMBASSY (where: the fort. hours: 10pm-6am. entrance: Php 400. mood: happy,crappy,loopy,crazy,lazy,flirty,bitchy,itchy,justwannagettipsy). check! "anong oras tayo pupunta? kaya ba free entrance/malagay sa list?"
Whoever planned the strategic design of Embassy was certainly one shrewd dude. I never actually realized, much less noticed the one-stop shop model it displayed until I myself came full "emba" circle one night and became aware of how this club was so perfectly positioned in the value chain. Why am I dissecting the structure of Embassy of all subjects? I don't know. I'm home on a Friday night. Then again, perhaps I just find it remarkable. Go figure. Anyhoo, Under the big white umbrella of Embassy there is the Embassy cafeteria, which is open until the wee hours. Wee hours nanga, wala paring available table. Then there's Embassy cuisine, an upscale lounge where showbiz peeps unite and where non-showbiz peeps ogle and commence on roasting gossip admist the blaring music. Inom-inom, usap-usap, touch-up sa c.r. Punong-puno naman yun c.r kaya nawala nadin "urge" mong umihi pag pasok sa loob. Really, no one can have a decent conversation here. Ay wait, decent pwede pa pala, cerebral, no. I like to define cuisine as the pre-club scene or baby embassy, ala mini me. Finally, there's Embassy Club, the place to see and be seen by a diverse demographic of spenders. The super club where the survival of the wildest and hottest men and women, posers and wannabes is amplified, where the drinking and dancing starts, where the pretenses begin for some and end with others, where DJ Owens (rawr) brings house music to another level, where Brazilian goddesses with tanned, toned bodies raise the roof, where all the fun starts and stops and all care is left behind..music, party, hubba-hubbas, excitement, dancing, adrenalin rush...an instant cure. :)
This night was a whirlwind of emotions. I never felt so alive, confused, happy, carefree, bahala na, for a long time. Next day, Hangover. Problema? Naiwan ko ata sa emba ;)
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| NATURAL HIGHS |
[Wednesday
August 30th, 2006
9:15pm] |
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Think about them one at a time BEFORE going on to the next one...
IT DOES MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD, especially the thought at the end.
1. Falling in love. -- *SIGH* OVER AND OVER AGAIN :)
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts. -- I LOVE THIS KIND OF ENDORPHIN RUSH!
3. A hot shower -- AHHH SARAP TAPOS WEARING A FLUFFY ROBE RIGHT AFTER
4. No lines at the supermarket -- GREAT! ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU HAVE A FULL CART OF ICE CREAM
5. A special glance. -- FROM WHO? PAG CRUSH KILIG! PAG BF/SS KILIG + AWWW SWEET + BUTTERFLIES IN YOUR STOMACH + HEART SKIPS A BEAT :)
6. Getting mail -- SWEET MAIL THAT I CAN READ OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND NEVER GET TIRED OF
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road. -- SOMEBODY PLEASE TEACH ME HOW TO DRIVE. YUN HINDI SA VILLAGE VILLAGE LANG NA 20KM/HR. AS IN REAL HARD CORE DRIVING
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio. -- AND SINGING AND DANCING ALONG WITH. ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M IN THE SHOWER. MY VOICE SOUNDS BETTER BOUNCING OFF THE WALLS WAHAHA
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside. -- TOP IT OFF WITH A GOOD BOOK, HOT CHOCOLATE WITH MARSHMALLOWS OR YOUR SS SNUGGLING BESIDE YOU
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer. -- TAPOS YOU SMELL THE SOAP PA. MMMMMM :)
11. Chocolate milkshake. -- WITH BANANAS ON THE BEACH
12. A bubble bath. -- USED TO DO THIS BACK WHEN I WAS LIVING IN CANADA. I DON'T HAVE A BATHTUB NOW AND I OUTGREW THE PAIL I USED AS A BATHTUB BEFORE...TEEHEE
13. Giggling. -- EVERYDAY
14. A good conversation. -- PERFECT OVER COFFEE OR ALCOHOL
15. The beach -- LOVE IT!
16. Laughing at yourself. -- AGAIN, EVERYDAY
17. Midnight phone calls that last for hours. -- DEPENDE SINO ;P
18. Running through sprinklers. -- AWW CHILDHOOD MEMORIES..PLUS MY INFLATABLE POOL
19. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all. -- OH YES, ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M TIPSY
20. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful. -- FEELS GOOD ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU KNOW IT'S NOT BOLA OR YOU'RE HAVING A NOT SO BEAUTIFUL DAY AND SOMEONE TELLS YOU OTHERWISE
21. Laughing at an inside joke. -- CUUTE! HEHE I'M THINKING OF ONE RIGHT NOW HAHA
22. Friends. -- WILL ALWAYS BE HONEST WITH YOU. CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT 'EM
23. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you -- FLATTERING :)
24. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to
sleep. -- YAAY! SANA I STILL WAKE UP IN TIME
25. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner). -- THE FIRST TIME I KISSED TEETH, THE SECOND WAS BLISS ;) HAHA GO FIGURE
26. Making new friends or spending time with old ones. -- YOU LEARN SOMETHING NEW EVERYDAY
27. Playing with a new puppy. -- MY PUPPY LOOKS LIKE A RABBIT
28. Having someone play with your hair. -- I LOOVEE THISS. SUPER KILIG :)
29. Sweet dreams. -- ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND STILL REMEMBER IT. IT'S LIKE YOU WANT TO KEEP ON SLEEPING AND SEE HOW IT ENDS. IF YOU CAN'T, THE THOUGHT LINGERS WITH YOU THE WHOLE DAY AS YOU WALK AROUND WITH A SILLY SMILE ON YOUR FACE
30. Hot chocolate. -- WITH MARSHMALLOOWS YUM!
31. Road trips with friends. -- SOMEONE PLEASE PLAN THE NEXT ONE HEHE VAL?
32. Swinging on swings. -- THE HIGHER YOU GET, THE FREE-ER YOU FEEL. IT'S LIKE FOR A FLEETING MOMENT, YOU LEFT ALL YOUR WORRIES BEHIND AND ALL THAT MATTERS IS HOW HIGH YOU GO, HOW FAR YOUR FEET ARE FROM THE GROUND, HOW THE COOL BREEZE CARESSES YOUR FACE SO WONDERFULLY, AND HOW EVERYTHING AT THAT MOMENT IS JUST PERFECT
33. Making eye contact with a cute stranger -- RAWR!
34. Making chocolate chip cookies -- AND LICKING THE BATTER OFF YOUR FINGERS. SO SO GOOD!
35. Having your friends send you homemade cookies -- OH OH! BACK IN COLLEGE, MY BEST FRIEND BROUGHT ME A WHOLE BAG OF GOODIES WHEN I WAS STUCK IN BED WITH CHICKEN POX. (YES, COLLEGE NA AKO NAGKAROON NG CHICKEN POX). MY OTHER FRIEND TOOK ME OUT AND WE SHARED A PLATE OF CHILI FRIES WHILE I RANTED ABOUT A TORPE. HEHE ONE WEEK LATER, SHE GOT CHICKEN POX TOO SO I BROUGHT HER SOME OF MY LEFTOVER MEDS. HAHA
36. Holding hands with someone you care about. -- ESPECIALLY IF HE HOLDS MY HAND FIRST, DOES IT IN FRONT OF HIS FRIENDS SABAY HUG AND KISS. AYYYY :)
37. Running into an old friend and realizing
that some things (good or bad) never change. -- I'D LIKE TO KEEP RUNNING INTO THOSE WHO ARE STILL "BAD" UNTIL THE DAY COMES WHEN THEY HAVE CHANGED FOR THE BETTER. I WANT MY LAST MEMORY OF THEM TO BE ONE WHEN THEY ARE ALREADY COMPLETELY HAPPY WITH THEIR LIVES
38. Watching the expression on someone's face
as they open a much desired present from you. -- I LOVE IT WHEN THE ENDLESS PLANNING AND SHOPPING FOR THE PERFECT GIFT AROUSES SHRIEKS AND GENUINE LAUGHTER FROM THE PERSON YOU GIVE IT TO. MAKES YOU FEEL GOOD TO HAVE MADE SOMEONE HAPPY AND SAY TO YOURSELF THAT THE MONEY SPENT AND EFFORT EXAUSTED WAS ALL WORTHWHILE
39. Watching the sunrise. -- SA TV :) NEVER ACTUALLY SEEN THE SUN RISE. SOMEBODY TAKE ME TO WATCH THE SUNRISE! HAHA
40. Getting out of bed every morning and
being grateful for another beautiful day. -- IF ONLY EVERYDAY WERE "BEAUTIFUL" BUT I'M NOT COMPLAINING...THAT MUCH :)
41. Knowing that somebody misses you. -- GOSH, I'M GETTING ALL SAPPY NOW
42. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply. -- HAAAAAYYY :) IT FEELS GOOD TO KNOW HOW PERFECTLY YOU FIT INTO SOMEBODY'S ARMS AND HOW MUCH YOU ARE LOVED
43. Knowing you've done the right thing,
no matter what other people think. -- ABSO-FUCKIN-LUTELY!
Since I'm on a roll here and because I'm such a GIRL, I decided to extend the given list with a few more "natural highs" of my own.
44. Slow dancing -- PERFECT MUSIC, PERFECT SETTING, WITH THE PERFECT PERSON :)
45. Sharing an umbrella -- RUSHING TO SHELTER WITH YOU HAVING THE LARGER PART OF THE UMBRELLA. THEN YOU LOOK AT EACH OTHER, REALIZE THAT NEITHER ONE OF YOU IS COMPLETELY DRY AND LAUGH LIKE YOU'RE THE ONLY TWO PEOPLE LEFT IN THE WORLD
46. Closing a deal -- AFTER FOREVER. SARAP NG FEELING! BEER FOR ALL.
47. Tiendesitas -- I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU, BUT THIS PLACE HAS A REAL CALMING EFFECT ON ME. I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT IT. THE COZINESS, UNCOMPLICATED FOOD (ISAAAW!), THE EASY ATMOSPHERE, AND UNASSUMING PEOPLE. IT'S AMAZING.
WOOW, I ACTUALLY FEEL GIDDY. THE THINGS THESE SURVEYS CAN DO TO SAPS LIKE ME. SHNIFF :)
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| A day without a phone |
[Tuesday
August 29th, 2006
9:17am] |
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Living in a country where cell phones have become quite an epidemic, you could just imagine how one day without one would make you feel like a hermit on an island. I never truly realized my utter dependency on my tiny mobile until I idiotically left it in a cab on my way to a meeting. I frantically tried calling the driver, but the crook just refused to pick up. Where have all the good people gone?! One day, I shall create a device for every mobile consumer designed with a remote control that will allow stolen cell phone units to self-destruct upon initiation of the owner. 5, 4, 3, 2, 1..Kaboom! Yesss, *evil laugh* After the meeting and still flabbergasted, I found myself sitting alone, gazing into the smog-filled space of Starbucks' smoking room, where literally every person I saw was either gabbing away or texting on their cell phones without a care in the world. I sat there stricken with the thought that I'm sure I missed some important calls or text messages from whoever. How the hell was I supposed to respond to them? Even if I bought myself a new phone all my contacts amassed thru the years would be gone. So this was how it felt to be in total alienation from the communications world. Some good samaritan informed me that there was a Globe center somewhere across the street. "Malapit lang" daw. I decided to just get this over with now and have my sim card cut as well as to have my old number back. Midway to Globe, I realized that "malapit lang" to some people is really not that "malapit" to someone wearing heels and carrying a laptop. So I stopped in the middle of the sidewalk to take a breather and catch a cab back to work when this this huge bus stopped right in front of me, opened it's doors with the conductor signalling for me to get in. Since it was going to ortigas anyway, I hopped in and sat next to this manang with the prettiest little girl beside her. (I swear she looked like Liv Tyler). The ride was long and bumpy. I hate drivers that brake and go every 2 minutes. It makes my insides go flip flop. Good thing I had a Snickers bar in my bag which I munched on the entire way back. At the office, my boss mentioned that he was calling me for the longest time. I knew it! I wonder what other calls I missed. Fast forward on my way home with my mom riding in the car screaming her lungs out on why I took a cab, I could have gotten raped, killed, kidnapped and the like. I appreciate the concern, but I REALLY do not need anyone yakking my ear off after a long day. Oh no, we weren't done yet. At home my dad proceeded on giving me a semi-lecture about taking public transporation. OH gaad. I've been doing this for years! Based on their reaction, I guess I'll never have the chance to tell them about my exciting time hitchhiking with a total stranger on a random truck or the countless times I rode the MRT by myself from Ortigas to Taft and back, my jeepney experience in EDSA central, my most recent bus ride, and the day I walked all the way home from school during college. My folks love keeping me on a leash. Well, this dog has gone places fyi and she's not stopping now ;)
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| 5 takes, takes candice :p |
[Thursday
August 3rd, 2006
3:53pm] |
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A pioneering interactive television series, 5 Takes chronicles the journey of five young travelers on the adventure of a lifetime.
With video cameras, laptops and US$50 a day, the five travel journalists (TJs) will visit 12 cities across Australia, New Zealand, Singapore, Hong Kong and Taiwan in 12 weeks.
They have one mission: to share their experiences with the world through their five unique perspectives.
In under 150 words, tell us why you should be a TJx in the next season of 5 Takes.
There are human beings contented with simply blending into the social scene, making mountains of cash, and living in the mainstream. There is one, who longs to set out on an avant-garde voyage and at last surface from her austere little box en route for subsisting in a different planet, not because she is jaded but because gazing from the windows of her "castle" she sees that outside there are knights fighting dragons, warriors losing limbs, and masked bandits on their horses fleeing to their forts and she is fascinated. A princess who would just like to live in a world apart from her own so one day with her grandkids gathered around her, tell them that in her youth she did something incredible, breathtaking, and poles apart from her present existence. A girl who is scared of diving. - Afraid to plunge into the ocean's depths in fear of having her lungs "explode". A girl who cringes at the notion of bungee jumping with the dreaded thought that the cord might be too long and her brain would end up splattered on the hard cement, A girl who has always had more than 50 dollars to spend and would trade it all to take on the world, beginning with 12 countries in twelve weeks.
A girl whose ardent will to defy all norms and readiness to step out of her comfort zone can be seen by her writing a 258 word essay with a 150 word limit and submitting her entry way past the cut-off date.
Let's go.
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| It's always darkest before dawn |
[Tuesday
August 1st, 2006
5:57am] |
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It's a miracle. I am awake at this time. I've been up since 4 am for some weird reason. My mind must be bugging me about something coz I usually sleep like a bear hibernating in the winter. I guess I'll just go to the office early today to catch up on work. I hope I don't get sleepy later.
Good morning world! Happy birthday M! :) mwah!
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| 2 years later |
[Saturday
July 29th, 2006
11:11am] |
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I found this entry in my old blog and it still applies today.
I like this maxim so much since most of the people I know have certain requirements about their prospective companions in life, but then we see them falling in love with their complete, imperfect opposites.
We're all seeking that special person who is right for us. But if you've been through enough relationships, you begin to suspect there's no right person, just different flavors of wrong. Why is this? Because you yourself are wrong in some way, and you seek out partners who are wrong in some complementary way. But it takes a lot of living to grow fully into your own wrongness. It isn't until you finally run up against your deepest demons, your unsolvable problems - the ones that make you truly who you are - that you're ready to find a lifelong mate. Only then do you finally know what you're looking for. You're looking for the wrong person. But not just any wrong person; it has got to be THE RIGHT WRONG PERSON - someone you lovingly gaze upon and think, "This is the problem I want to have."
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